It’s warmer than it should be
Considering that Halloween was yesterday
But now it’s just November
and I’m struggling to remember why these
Words I’ve said
Were ever up inside my head
I think that it must bore you
And i’d like to reassure you that
No matter what I do and what I say
No matter how I try to run away
No matter what the place is that I try to hide my face in
I am going to be ok.
I’ve never sounded happy
Believe me that it’s tough to quit
Inadequate
And maybe any face you see has
More to do with chemistry
But please believe
I’m better than I’ve ever been
And even if it’s chemical, I’ll
Take it ’till I am the pill
No matter what I do and what I say
No matter how I try to run away
No matter what the place is that I try to hide my face in
I am going to be ok.
Stop kicking myself around
I know it’s not my fault
Stop rubbing that stupid wound
You know it’s full of salt
Stop beating myself up every other fucking day
Hands down, head up because I’m going to be ok
I’m never going back there
Even if it’s hope in vain, it isn’t pain
But it can’t hurt for now
Until I pull it out somehow
The cycle is forever
But what it means is there’s a spark
In all my dark
And everything I’ve learned to love
And everything I’ve disposed of
No matter what I do and what I say
No matter how I try to run away
No matter what the place is that I try to hide my face in
No matter where the curtain falls or if the sadness comes at all
No matter what the distance and no matter my existence
I am going to be ok.
credits
from I Am the Chemical,
released November 13, 2015
Bradley Herr - vocals, guitars, bass, drums
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