I step back now and then
Look at what’s on my hands
The child in my head wants somebody he can blame
I try to look inside
The monsters in my mind
I try to rein them but they’re monsters that I can’t tame
Embarrassed of my shame
But not enough to change
Maybe it’s time that I agree it’s time to look inside my mind and find the reason that I’m always too scared to
Change
It doesn’t hurt to start
It can’t distract the art
You shut a door, another’s opening every day
And so the monsters win
You let your brain give in
And if it’s me, I need to find a better way to change
Cause what I got ain’t right
So if I start tonight
The worst that happens isn’t worse that what you’ve got but if you stop before you start you’ll you’ve nobody else to
Blame
So yeah I’ll take that help
And see it to some end
And if it helps me then those pills will be my best friend
And what it does for me
I guess we wait and see
At best it’s better and at worst it isn’t worse because I can’t go any lower I buck up and I start again
I can
credits
from I Am the Chemical,
released November 13, 2015
Bradley Herr - vocals, keyboards, programming
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